The Big Move

It's amazing how quickly life can pass you by; one minute you're a little kid with not a care in the world and then all of a sudden you're all grown up with all these responsibilities and you wonder where all your time got to. But the truth is, the world isn't going to wait for you to get your head out of the clouds it just keeps on going, leaving you behind.

It still feels like yesterday that I packed up my stuff, said goodbye to my friends and family and to moved to QLD with my boyfriend. It doesn't even feel like its been over 5 months, but it has. I don't quite know how I feel to be honest, i'm just so confused and everyday I feel different. One day I think I know what I want and then the next day i'm not so sure. It's been really hard for me but i'm coping the best way I know how. I have my reasons to stay but I also have my reasons to go, even though those reasons aren't enough for me to say "that's it, i'm going home", the reasons are still there and I can't help but think about them. Most days i'm great and glad to be here but it's those other days when I wonder aimlessly back and forth from room to room trying to find something to do that really get to me. It's those days that I wish I was back in Metford, living right around the corner from my best friend..Gosh! I miss her. I miss all my friends and the fun we used to have just being idiots, I miss my family, I miss all the little things that I took for granted every day, like my mums cooking haha.  

Don't get me wrong though, i'm not complaining because if I look at the big picture I know I have a good thing going here; I don't have to pay board, Narelle cooks me dinner and washes my clothes, they let me use their net for free and I get to be with my boyfriend 24/7. What more could a girl ask for, right? I know that most teenagers these days would kill to have a deal this good, it's just I can't help but feel like i'm missing out on something. It would be nice to have somebody else to talk to besides Jason, to have my own friends that I can go shopping with and just do my own thing with. Because i'm so used to going out all the time it's hard to get used to doing nothing...*sighhh* who knows, maybe it will all work itself out. All i know is that i'm not going to give up just yet, i'm going to stick this out and give it my best shot. I want this to work.