What Do You Do When Life Throws You A Curve Ball?

Today was the worst day ever. I woke up this morning to the sound of Flyleaf, at first I wasn't sure what I was hearing but then I realised and answered my phone. It was my mother. I was happy to hear from her cause i'd been thinking about calling her for a while I just hadn't really had the time. Anyways, she had bad news; she told me that my ex boyfriend Dylan was dead, that she had heard from my friend Rose's mum that he had commited suicide. There was also something about something being on a computer that someone saw that lead them to believe he was dead, but i'm not quite sure what that was all about. So anyways, I wasn't upset when she said it but I was curious as to when she heard this and when they thought he'd died and all that jazz because I spoke to him the other day on msn and assuming that it wasn't some punk pretending to be him I was positive he was alive. I've known Dylan for a while and he's usually a bit of a mess when I talk to him but I can almost guarentee he would of told me if he was planning on doing it or was even thinking about it. So yeah at this point I was so confused, it just didn't seem right you know but mum was positive that Rose's mum knew what she was on about, so I called him. Some lady answered the phone, I didn't quite catch what she said but I wasn't going to bother asking because I just wanted to cut to the chase; I asked her if Dylan was there and she replied "Yes, But he's in bed sleeping at the moment. Would you like me to give him a message?" I couldn't help but laugh, I knew he wasn't dead. When I got off the phone to the lady I got back on the phone to mum and told her, she was very shocked and very confused, can you actually believe for a second she thought I was lying when I told her he wasn't dead haha well she did. So that was a fabulous start to my day..not but I couldn't stress about that because I had to get ready for work because I was going to be late. So, I got ready, said goodbye to Jason, who by the way looks so cute when he's sleeping/waking up hehe, and got on the bus. Just so you know this is where my day gets really shitty and even though the phone call from my mother wasn't oh so pleasant I woke up in a good mood. It felt like it was going to be a good day, I hadn't worked for a while so I was really looking forward to being back there. Anyways, I get into work and my boss says "what are you doing here?" and i'm like "I'm supposed to be working today, aren't I?" and she says "Nope, you have this weekend off but you're working next weekend" I thought about that for a second because I could of sworn I got the right shifts, I knew I was supposed to be working this weekend and then I realised what she said you're working next weekend that was it. WTF had she done! So I told her that there had been a mistake with the roster that I was supposed to be working this weekend but it was the next 2 weeks that me and Jason wouldn't be here for. She rolled her eyes and got the shits and checked the communication book. I was right. I put the right dates into the book it's just she stuffed up and forgot or whatever it was that she did. She looked at me and said "Can I be honest with you, I think it's best you just finish up today. You take too much time off" I was totally devo! I didn't know what the hell I was going to do. I loved my job and the people I worked with, I needed the money to save for my course, I needed the job so I could get the loan for my course, I needed money for the next 2 weeks in NSW! What the hell was I going to do. I just couldn't believe it, all these things were running through my head and all the while I could feel tears filling my eyes and the only thing I could say was "oh, ok then. I'm sorry" and I just walked out. I didn't even defend myself. As soon as I stepped outside the shop I broke down crying and the only thing running through my head was FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

Worst Day Ever, Worst Day Of My Life.